我又早睡了，930pm。结果，我又在1230am醒来了。妈的。 这几天我追着wow wow的grey's anatomy。因为很好看，有我最近很喜欢的Patrick Dempsey，很多好听的插曲。然后我刚才surf了一下GA的相关网站，来到这里。答案说我像izzie。"You are very sensitive and sympathetic, yet sometimes you let your feelings get in the way of the bigger picture." 哈哈，很笼统可是也蛮准的。 n mayb i watched too much in a row.i found out i started to think in english,in their language, n i dunno y. luckily i know only a few about meds,i cant even spell sedation.hmm yes i juz spelled it, i mean,smthg more difficult,like those i'll neva gonna know their meanings, unless my sis or doreen explain to me,or i google them. else u will find me start filling my blog w N new med terms. in some ways, i think english is quite a language tht can express smthg, in some..errhmm, some different ways. u see, i start to regret i din study ths language well. there r owiz new vocabs tht i dun understand, tht no matter how long i stare at the words, i juz couldnt figure out the meanings. there r owiz sentences or slangs tht i will neva know wat they mean, even though every single words tht build the sentences r simple n easy. 语言这回事嘛……嗯，不懂。like love。……嗯，不懂。呵呵。 shit,我中毒了。那种生活中处处有metaphors，处处有让人领悟少少东西的东西。妈的。我也不知道自己要写些什么。突然间，东西好像不是那么简单了。可是又其实很简单。像连续剧那样。 oh, maybe life's realli 好像连续剧。戏剧化得让我也变得戏剧化来了。戏剧化地想起你戏剧化的意外，还有那些曲折的情节变化。像preplanned，可是不是。那些你戴着氧气面罩，那些和剧里类似的情节，扑通扑通的心跳，黑青的眼圈，stapled的腹部，切掉的spleen，银色的冷冷的文件夹，x-ray片，点滴，wheelchair……我人生的编剧，是谁。导演是谁。 还是不要向浆多，睡不着就去看连续剧啰。我知道记忆会回来despite the hardwork i've been trying to forget。blaim the estrogen。
